For so long my joy was held off until….(this happens). The struggle came when I realized that even when that thing or event happened, there would be a new thought about a new thing/event that needed to happen before joy was possible. Chasing joy, banking on it coming through earthly happenings is futile.

Now I realize that joy comes in embracing Christ at all costs, in all moments, in all messes. His embrace brings joy. Only his embrace. A calm peaceful, joyful spirit is not achieved through earthly effort, happenings, or achievement, it only comes from a wholehearted closeness with God. One that comes with surrendering all that you are to Him every minute, one minute at a time.